Today's Weight: 181 . 5
Loss/Gain: +2 . 5
Total Loss So Far: -49 . 5 lbs
This morning I have proof that the past week has indeed been a PMS week. I know I have lost during PMS before, but this wasn't the month for that.
Last night I was very, very blue about this gain, as I already knew it was coming. This is my 2nd year weight loss anniversary and I wanted to be closer to 171 than I am today. The comparison monster had me being vexed knowing that some would read that and think, "Well, you didn't want it bad enough, did you?" Nope I guess not.
The silver lining on this is that I have made time for exercise every day this week so far. None of it has been at the gym, so I'm sure that's why the gain. I can eat extra and at least maintain when I'm able to workout longer and harder. Walking is great exercise, but it doesn't burn enough calories to counteract some of the eating I did.
This past week I actually had moments of thinking I should just quit and stop worrying about all of this..."I'll never reach my goal weight". Thankfully I also argued with myself about how dumb that would be.
So, I will not quit. I know that. Deep down inside I refuse to let go of my grip on the dream of being the thin, healthier, more in control lady I've always wanted to be.
And now that will be enough of the sad feelings for today. I will be posting soon with some photos celebrating my two year weight loss anniversary and all the blessings that have come with losing 49 . 5 pounds.
Good for you! I know what you mean about those ugly thought getting into your head. Oh those blasted hormones! :-)
ReplyDeleteJust keep going. There are times where the scale just does not cooperate. Work your plan and don't let a gain derail you at all.
ReplyDeleteGood on you for not giving up! I know how hard it can be at times and the easy thing to do would be to just throw in the towel.
ReplyDeleteIt is reading posts like this one that helps to keep me focused and not give up on myself - thanks Leah xx
Keep going Leah! It's hard, but don't let this 2 lb gain trick you up. Drink water to flush it out and it will all be good!
ReplyDeleteIts been so long - I've missed you Leah and am so happy to see you marching on! Always focus on the positive - you'll succeed that way, just like you have been : )
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