Weigh-In ... Something Has To Be Done

Today's Weight:  168.5

Loss/Gain:  +1.0 lb

Short Story:

I've no idea why, but I'm having the hardest time staying out of the junk.  I think I'm in a subconscious rebellion.  :(  But I won't give up and I have decided something has to be done and I'm ready to do it.  I have a plan! (for the umpteenth time...but success does consist of getting up one more time, right?)

Long Story:

Well, I'm not surprised by the gain and only glad it wasn't more.  This has been a real "off" week for me.  It's like I can't get a grip on getting back on track after the Christmas feasting.  Last week I was doing great and then the weekend went bad.  Sheesh.  The other day I even went so far as to look up when TOM hit last month to see if maybe that was my problem, but alas...I'll be way early if that's the case. 

Anyway...the only thing I can think of is that I'm subconsciously rebelling against the thought of getting back on track, because I know deep down I need to get seriously on track. 

I'm not sure.  *rolling eyes*  

I do know that I told a friend of mine I feel like I'm still recuperating from our busier-than-ever Christmas season in all areas of my life.  I find myself deciding to take a nap rather than work on something I know needs to get done.  It's like I was so glad to not have evening commitments that I have relaxed too much.  

Again..I'm not sure.  I just know that not only do I feel guilty at times for the snacking-when-no-one-is-looking moments, but I also feel crappy physically.  It's not nice to feel this way.  

Anyway, it is what it is and....I've decided on a solution to deal with the lack of focus.  

My sister-in-law and I are going to do Jillian Michael's 7-day kickstart eating plan from her Body Revolution plan. **

I did this last summer (read here) and found that as miserable at I felt at times eating gross plain greek yogurt..blech. eating no sugars/grains really helped curb my cravings for sweets.  (I know, I know... it's a proven fact that I choose to ignore most of the time.)  I also know that while eating plain yogurt isn't my favorite thing there are lots of other foods out there that I do enjoy, even though I usually decide to skip over them for junk.

Folks, I'm less than 30 pounds from my goal weight and I know what things are keeping me from getting there.  I've simply chosen to try and get around them and fake it.  That's not working and I'm tired of it. 

I've gotta do something, so I've decided to go a little drastic to jumpstart myself back into losing.  The 7 days don't allow ANY sugar or grains, to kick the sugar demon out.  

I'll be honest...I don't look forward to the days I feel miserable because I can't have what I want, but I know if I can push through those days it'll be worth it.  

Okay, let me back up and explain the last comment.  Those thoughts are the product of my plan to continue on with Jillian's regular Body Revolution meal plan after the 7-day kickstart.  The plan mainly consists of whole grains, lean meats, fruits and veggies.  Nothing weird.  Just good wholesome foods minus the added sugar. 

That's why it's a little scary for me, but I know it needs to be done.  I'm not only frustrated with not being able to break away from the junk food, but I also have two people close to me who are trying to lose weight and I want to be a good example for them.  and I can't have them reaching their goal before me!! lol

I also know that anyone who has followed me for a while will read this and think, "We'll see.  She's said this before."  and I don't blame you one bit.  This changing my life & bad habits stuff is hard and I don't like to do what's hard.  It's why I'm taking almost 4 years to lose weight.  :(  

But, I have always said that I won't give up.  I've got goals this year and I need to get to feeling better so I can complete them.  

Wish me luck!  Say a prayer!  Send healthy vibes! 

And most of all...thanks for checking in on me!  :)

**  SIL is staying with us for a bit, needs to lose about as much weight as me and was frustrated...so we're killing two birds with one stone here - helping her and getting myself back on track.