Weigh-In ... Feeling Good, Excited and Nervous

Today's Weight: 164.5

Loss/Gain:  -5.5 lbs

Gosh.  What do I say?  :)  Well, I know I earned this loss.  First off, remember I told you last Friday I was up from a heavy dinner the night before on the 4th?  But even if I go by the weight from the morning of the 4th, I'm still down over 3 pounds.

It feels good.  I'm excited.  And I'm a little nervous. 

It feels good, because I've tracked all my food since the weekend.  I've also been choosing healthier options daily.  For example, I took the kids bowling and knew I'd treat them to lunch at the bowling alley.  I also knew the menu would be full of fried foods.  So, I packed myself a turkey sandwich and allowed myself a bag of chips and a diet soda at the eatery.  Score! I've been tweaking a little about how much and what I eat, but I'll write more about that later.  Suffice it to say, less fat and sugar meals feel so much better and when I stay within my calorie budget...well, the scale goes down.  :)

I'm excited, because I've come across a new-to-me blog Runs for Cookies and she has inspired me to keep working on weight loss.  She started the same summer I did, reached her weight, gained a bit back and then lost that bit and has now been maintaining for over a year (I think).  She is a mother, she runs and she is so very real.  I could go on and on about what I love about her blog and her story and how I can relate so much to her, but maybe another day.  Suffice it to say, she has given me hope again.  

I'm also a little nervous, because I've never officially made it past 164 in my adult life.  I've hit this before and then something happens and I toy around between this and 167.  I'm still keeping my ultimate goal of 140.  For my 5' 4", medium frame I know this is okay.  However, I have told my friend if I get to 150 and am staying active with my running and exercise and feel like I can stay there, I will.  However, even 150 means losing another 15 pounds.  It means breaking 160, and that makes me nervous.  The fear of failure crept in this morning and my stomach was tied up in knots for a few minutes.   However, I'm going to keep doing what I did this week and choose not to worry.

I am going to keep taking it a day at a time.  I will focus on what feels good - better food choices and staying within calorie budget - each day.  I will stay excited about the journey by keeping in touch with fellow bloggers.   I will try to keep my stomach from getting tied up in knots by not thinking too far ahead and whether or not I can actually get to a healthier weight.  For now I know if I succeed one day at a time it will all add up to more success. 

And there will be more success, because remember...I'm never giving up.  This week proves it.  :)