It's not really as dramatic as it sounds -- it's always an issue when you're putting on weight and not taking it off -- but I wanted to come update how the scale is looking.
It's not looking pretty.
Some people say we should throw away our scales, because we are more than a number. Well, I need my scale. It's an accountability tool.
Stepping on the scale forces me to face what I already know in my gut, literally (ha!). I know my clothes are snug and the scale confirms that no, I have not lost anything yet. I don't mind it because it's the reality check I need.
Actually, what hit me this morning when I saw a number above 175 for the second time this week was, "Is this how people end up gaining all their weight back??? They keep seeing numbers go up and say, 'I'm going to stop this.', but don't??"
That scares me. In a healthy way.
The exercise is getting back on track and now I need to work on tracking my food again and making better food choices.
I know December is not a good month to try and lose weight, so I will commit to at least being 175 by the end of the month. However, in my dreamy-not-waiting-until-January-to-start world I want to be at or break 170 by January 1st.
I know it can be done, because I've lost weight in December before.
In the meantime, can I just say... for those of you who are keeping the fight and doing well right now....THANK YOU. It's encouraging to me.