Today marks the beginning of the last 100 days of the year and you know what that means around here... the beginning of the Healthy Holidays Challenge 2016! Woo Hoo!
As of a few minutes ago there are now 14 of us signed up for this challenge. I'm pleased. It's a little nerve wrecking for me, because I personally know at least half of them. [insert scared eyes emoji] (I need to figure out where those are for blogs??)
I have no problem sharing my story with perfect strangers, but when people I know or people who know people I know start finding out about my "secret life with weight issues" I get a little nervous.
I know I can't be the only one who feels like that, but I do.
Those as slightly embarrassed as I get I also get excited, because I haven't given up.
There's no need to be ashamed or even embarrassed, because my story hasn't ended. It's had bumps in the road, but it's not over. It's become something I'm passionate about, because if I can change anyone can and that's the message I try and share.
My desire to share this message is why I decided to hostess this challenge and it's what helped me post this photo comparison to Instagram this week. My type A personality likes to follow rules and be honest, so I decided I would show everyone exactly where I'm at. If they are going to follow me on a challenge then they deserve to know I'm honest and I'm right there with them on this journey.
It was hard.
I didn't like showing that I'm not the girl in the middle photo anymore. This is silly since most people already know that. However, it's one thing to have everyone know, and even to know yourself, it's another thing to actually admit to it and be okay with it.
Only really in the last week or two have I finally come to a place where I am okay with the 35-pound gain I'm carrying. I'm finally able to see that these past 2 1/2 years back have taught me a few things about myself and how I handle stress.
Funny, but I'm ultimately coming to a place where I am okay with the fact that we will always keep learning as we age. I didn't realize how hard I fought with being a perfectionist until I faced some struggles and couldn't grasp the fact that "at least I am learning it now".
Before I go on with that thought, suffice it to say I'm okay with that now. I'm beginning to feel at peace with what I've gone through, that my way of handling things was how I handle things and whether it was the best way to handle it or not it's okay.
I've taken note and I'll keep working on it.
And I will continue to strive to inspire others with my journey and encourage them not to give up on their health during busy seasons or stressful times. Thus, the challenge.
But one more thing... even if the challenge ended today, the response I've had to my honesty about where I'm at has been so inspiring back to myself. I'm challenged to be a hostess/leader that this group deserves, and I am looking forward to sticking to my own goals and seeing what this season brings to all of us.
Have a good weekend folks! Thanks for stopping by and thanks for indulging me in my long-winded posts. [insert heart emoji] Yeah...gotta go figure that emoji thing out... LOL :P