A short time ago I found myself thinking, "I used to feel fit, strong and healthy, but look at me now. " and I almost started thinking I'm never going to get back to that lady I had become as of only a year ago and who was I thinking to think I'd be a fit woman.
I was never that lady before, so who was I to think it was going to stick.
Before you worry too much, I tell you honestly I nipped that line of thinking in the bud as soon as it entered my mind.
Nope. I am not going back to that way of thinking, nor to the life of an overweight, unhealthy person.
I may feel fatter with these extra 20 pounds back on, but I am not giving in to the "I was never meant to be thin." mentality that so many revert to after a moment (or moments) of frustration.
I refuse to give in to that, so I didn't allow my mind to dwell on those negative thoughts of self doubt.
Instead, at the next meal when I had run out of Diet Pepsi (on purpose, because I was drinking too much of it at home) I had water with my dinner. It felt right.
I may not feel back to my old, healthier self just yet, but I will.
Something as small as drinking water with my dinner reminded me I can get back to the old-new Leah who didn't mind making healthier choices. She kind of got lost among the upsetting year of 2014, but she is not dead.