I'm in a bit of a funk this morning.
Yes, I'm happy with the loss I've seen so far and the changes physically that are noticeable more in clothing than on the scale. I weigh the same as a year ago, but my clothes fit me looser. It's great!
But it's not enough and I'm not content with that any more.
I know I can't quit. It's just not an option. I also know that I haven't been meeting my weekly goals, and I think I'll struggle until I do. I'm just so sick of doing good for a bit and then slacking off. It's been six months since I started and 21 pounds in six months means an average of 3.5 pounds a month.
I know it's better to be up than down, and at this rate I can still make my goal of being out of the plus sizes department by May 2011 (like I want to). But.... come on...I don't want to be the slowest person losing weight.
Okay, there it is. I don't want to be the slowest turtle in the race. I don't mind being the turtle, but I'm tired of being the slowest one.
Sorry this isn't an uplifting post, but it's how I'm feeling. I will get back on track....I will... I have a Hot 100 challenge to meet and I am determined to meet that goal.
I'm sure there are people out there who are losing weight slower than you are!! It's okay that this post isn't uplifting and happy. We all have our days.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't quitting and that's the most important thing. You made the decision to stick with it and you will!
Stay strong and focused. I had many days like this along my journey. Sometimes I slipped back, but more often than not I just kept focused on my goals. And I focused on not going back to where I had been.
The body, she is a funny one. Try not to focus on those darn scales. Next week you'll knock it out of park.
ReplyDeleteAre you feeling better?? That should be your guide and motivator right there!
Keep up the good work.
Okay, Leah. Focus on the behavior-- the weight will come. Slow is just fine as long as you're feeling good about your program. Here, check out two of my Secret Weapons: ripe plums from Costco and Vitalicious muffin tops (freezer case!)
ReplyDeleteKeep focused, Leah. Maybe you should change up your exercising routine. Walk for an hour outside, keep going to the gym you told me about. ~~ GO look in your closet and check out that cutie skirt you mentioned....:) Don't let yourself get bored with the same old routine.
ReplyDeleteThank you for all your wonderful comments guys!!
ReplyDeleteAfter posting this morning I went to the gym and did another 30 minutes on the elliptical and the weight machines for abs, back, etc. -- I think there was 6 I did total.
Of course, I felt better when I was done working out. I felt better about myself and my ability to make it further down this journey.
Yes, I am feeling much better physically than when I started and I'm not going to quit. Maybe I will hang that little skirt out to remind me...or just remember to look at the 1/2 way inspirational picture I put on my bedroom mirror. :)
I appreciate the time y'all took to leave a comment!