I'm homesick. I miss what is the norm and I want it back.
This has hit me in the last couple of hours and I'm also rejoicing because it means I didn't "lose it" when I was eating too much Taco Bell last night, or chocolate candy on Saturday.
These last two weeks of working full time have thrown my weight loss journey into a tizzy. I found myself wanting to munch at school throughout the day. Of course, PMS was no help in this matter at all.
As I type I'm amazed I didn't gain more than 2.5 pounds. I guess that shows I wasn't all that far off, but there were moments (especially over this past weekend) when I felt like I was the old Leah again. I was eating beyond full, snacking on candy when I wasn't even hungry and not drinking hardly any water.
So, today I tried to do better. I drank more water and even went as far as to not eat breakfast until I felt hungry (10:00 am while my class was at P.E.). I had my breakfast and then I ate a kind of large lunch. So I didn't eat dinner at the normal time because I wasn't hungry. Now I'm hungry and I'm going to go eat, but it's 8:16 p.m.
In a way I'm glad I made myself wait until I was hungry to eat because it showed me that I haven't lost my mind...I just took a vacation and now I'm ready to go back home.
Back to snacking on the fruits and being content with smaller portions of real food and not junk.
So, here I am. I'm telling you, for the umpteenth time, that I have not quit. I'm also letting you know that it feels so good to be "home" and back to my healthier habits.
It's so scary how old habits can come back at the blink of an eye. You can get the new habits back again.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Lori, it is scary how easily the old habits can come back.
ReplyDeleteI find it really hard to stay fit and work and raise a family. I think advanced food prep is key as is finding a space for yourself. I'm glad you've got some time at home coming up. Working sure helps you appreciate that!
ReplyDeleteThat said-- I have to go see a patient :)