"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Bathing Suit Miracle

I must start by saying that last summer I decided I wasn't going to worry myself anymore with what people though about my fat body at the public pool. I wear a suit with a skirt and I'm not exposing lots of cleavage or even lots of fat back to anyone. I decided I was not going to miss out on spending time with my kids because of my weight. Shoot! I'm also one of the whitest people around, so even if I was thin I wouldn't necessarily look good in a bathing suit with my white legs that don't tan. I've enjoyed every visit to the pool since then.

This summer I realized that my suit is just so old and stretched out that I can't even jump in the pool without worrying my straps will come right off. So, I decided that even though I'm working on weight loss I'm going to try and find an inexpensive new suit to finish out this year's worth of swimming visits.

Well, as I was trying some suits on today I was taken by surprise as I realized .... (dramatic pause) .... I wasn't dreading wearing a bathing suit out in public!! I was noticing that I'm standing just a little taller and my stomach is being held in just a little more. Yes, my thighs and pretty much most of me are still large, there are cellulite dimples and spider veins, but I didn't loathe what I saw. And that surprised me!

The last time I went bathing suit shopping I was about 40-50 lbs lighter and I HATED the thought of wearing a suit in public. I only bought it then to go swimming with two best friends on a weekend trip and I dreaded every minute of it.

Not this time.

Today I shopped for a suit with the realization that I'm a work in progress. Hating myself and my faults isn't going to change anything. I know where I need work and I'm working on it. So, while I'm still shopping around for a more affordable suit (couldn't bring myself to spend $50 on one), I did learn that I am reaching a point where I can love my body...even in a bathing suit.

What a miracle!


  1. Excellent! You are right, hating yourself isn't doing anyone any good, either you or your family.

    I'm proud of your attitude, and commitment. Keep it up!

  2. Wow! Glad you came to that point and what a really good comment about not hating yourself - anyone who is/has been heavy understands the loathing of bathing suit season, but now you can enjoy they day with your kids without worrying about what people think - way to go girl!

  3. I'm not sure I am that brave....just yet.
    Glad that you are having a fun time with your kids at the pool.