"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

Saturday, July 25, 2009

Why so nervous?

Last night I knew I was going to weigh in this morning and I was so nervous about it. I was nervous to the point that my stomach was in jumbles just thinking about it. Even this morning I was very, very nervous to get on the scale. I was lying in bed thinking, "Really? Some day my body isn't going to be this big?? I can hardly imagine it...well, time to get up so I can weigh in and be done with it."

I know I'm so scared I'll see a gain. It's that fear of not losing the weight that gets to me. It's so ridiculous. I mean, my goal is to reach my goal weight by the time my husband graduates from dental school in May of 2011. I still have over a year and a half to lose 90 lbs. That's plenty of time, so I should not be nervous.

But I am. Every week I am nervous about stepping on that scale.

Does/Did anyone battle this? I'd like to hear about your experiences.


  1. Leah, I've been reading some blogs about weight loss and I see the women who have lost over 100lbs! To see the before and after pictures are amazing.

    Somedays I look at myself in the mirror and say to myself, "there is no way I can get that skinny" Then I think of the time I did it before and I WAS that skinny.

    It's going to take time and patience. Somedays I just sit and sulk cause it's not coming off fast enough. Then I weigh myself and "Whoop There It Is" Weight lost!!

    We are going to look back in a few years and think of how fast it went!! It's always slower in the now. This is something we are having to work for and the pay off is HUGE!!

    I'm so glad to be doing it with you. For the last time!!

    Power on sister!! Love you Leah

  2. I agree with the PP - Things always seem slower in the now. Think about pregnancies - don't they seem to go on, and on, and on. But then once it's over you just can't believe it!