"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Pride & Falls and Ups & Downs

So, after my great post yesterday about getting up early I overslept this morning. I heard the alarm once and then again about 20 minutes after I should've gotten up. My morning schedule doesn't allow for a 20-minute change, so I had to skip my workout. Of course, we also have church tonight, so that means that there will be no workout at all today.

Oh well. Such is life. Sheesh!! "Pride comes before a fall..." right?

I will say the extra sleep sure felt good. I drank too much water close to bedtime and was up and down for the first hour after I went to bed. That was a bummer.

Oh, one more thing. Another "fall" of sorts.

Last night, after I posted, I happened to sit down on the couch next to my daughter and the seam on the inner thigh of my capris ripped. I had noticed the back seam was loose in parts, but that caught me off guard.

Talk about feeling FAT!!!! It threw me emotionally into a whirlwind of thoughts about how I'll never lose this weight, why am I even trying, etc. etc. Then it made me think about everything else that could possibly be a vex to me and I was miserable when I went to bed. I had a good cry and then finally dropped off to sleep (before I was awakened to use the potty two more times in the next hour).

However, this morning I got up and realized (sorry for the TMI) that I needed a lighter color bra to go under my shirt for school and I decided to try one I haven't worn in months because it's a size smaller around. Well, it fit!! I wore it all day and it has been comfortable.

So, I've been up and down emotionally a few times already since yesterday's post, but I'm glad it ended on a happier thought. :) Now, let's just see if I can get up to workout tomorrow morning, or if I'll end up doing it in the evening.

Talk to you tomorrow!

1 comment:

  1. I'm proud of you for wearing a smaller size! I'm proud of you for keeping up with your journey even though you have a few falls and rips!

    You can do this. It's a process of self-discovery in a lot of ways. It's much more complicated than just eating fewer calories isn't it?

    Keep strong!!