Total Loss/Gain: 0
Total Loss So Far: -21.5 lbs.
After the emotional week I've had I'm okay with this maintain. In fact, last night I told myself, "You know, I'm exercising regularly, I feel better and I'm not quitting. If I see a gain or a maintain tomorrow I'll just keep going." I wasn't upset, nervous, stressed or anything. Just accepting what will be will be and I will keep going no matter what the scale shows.
Earlier in the week I was stressing out because I wasn't going to meet my November goal of reaching 199 lbs for the Hot 100 Challenge. I didn't want to have to reevaluate my goals, because to me that meant being a failure again. However, I've decided that if I see any loss this month I will be happy with that and I can still work on meeting the ultimate goal of losing over the holidays.
It's not over yet, folks! I will get this weight off and learning all the stuff about how I've felt inside is really something I'm glad to be experiencing, even if it may hurt sometimes.
I bought lots of fresh veggies and got out my notebook this week and started journaling my food again. I will lose this weight.
Have a great Friday everyone! I'm off to substitute in PE today. Whee!!!