"Though no one can go back and make a brand new start,
anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending." ~ Anonymous

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Why Is This Time Different?

I was attempting to explain to a friend of mine yesterday why I feel so different about this attempt at losing weight. I was telling her that my mindset has changed and I can't really explain it. Finally I could only relate it to when I gave my life to Jesus and I changed.

I'm a born-again christian and there was a moment when I realized that I was a sinner and the only way to become free from my sin was to repent of my sins and accept the free gift of salvation through the blood of Jesus. At that moment my life changed and I had made my peace with God. Things weren't, nor will ever be, perfect, but the change was real and I began to build a foundation in Christ that has never let me down.

However, none of that would be had I not realized I was a sinner in need of a savior.

I've said that I was learning to love myself as a heavy woman before I could even think about losing weight. While that is true, it is also true that even after I started exercising and cutting out a few things here and there I finally had to come to grips with who I was, who I had been becoming and that my weight gain was no one's fault but my own. If I was going to lose weight and get control of my bad eating habits I was going to have to change -- not the food, not the surroundings, but me.

Once I was honest and faced myself I was able to take the steps that have gotten me started on this weight loss journey. As in my christian life, there are going to be ups and downs in my health, weight and food choices; but I know that I don't ever want to be the person I was before. So, I will press on in this journey and I will win in the end!


  1. I happened to find your blog through Fit to the Finish.

    Amen to that! I really like your post. :-)

  2. What a great way to describe this. Of course, one must be a Christian to even get it.

    You are right, there will be ups and downs, but in the end you WILL win! What an awesome feeling!

  3. It's funny because I read this yesterday, and I thought I had said I liked it, but I must have thought I said it - because obviously I didn't type what I thought!

    You will press on - just like you do in the rest of your life! Great post Leah.