Yesterday I just decided that I didn't care about losing weight anymore. I was am tired of it all.
I'm tired of feeling yucky.
I'm feeling so guilty for not working out.
I have overeaten a few times this past week and known it.
I'm stressing a little, though I try and tell myself I'm not.
I'm tired of feeling addicted to food.
I'm glad for how far I've come, but I know I have so much more to do and I'm feeling like it's never going to happen.
There I said it.
I know that once my head, nose and throat clear up I will feel better. I'll probably even look back on this post and laugh a little, but today I'm not laughing.
My silver lining around this cloud of bummer is that a good friend of mine talked with me over an hour yesterday about these very feelings and was so encouraging. Then this morning my mom called out of the blue just to chat for a bit and that was a godsend. Oh, and last night my kids told me that I look skinnier, and a friend of mine asked last week if I was losing weight. She said she could tell I have a nice figure (yea...under there somewhere...[grin]). They're so kind.
I know that I will feel better soon, and I know I need to take care of myself first or nothing else will get done.
I'm not quitting and I will not let my weight go back up. I'm only warning you that I'm not planning on any great losses showing up this week.
I think there are so many people feeling the same way right now. It is hard during the winter when it is cold and dark. I just want to curl up on my couch and watch holiday movies on Hallmark (not that the kids will let me). But that is what I want to do :-) I hope things start to turn around for you soon!
ReplyDeleteOne day at a time, dearie. The holidays are fun but crazy. Hopefully things will settle out for you soon. Feel better!
ReplyDeleteIt's a hard time of year to stay motivated with weight loss. You are not alone in your feelings, and I think what you are feeling is completely understandable.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad that God sent you those little gifts to help perk you up - friends and moms - two great gifts.
All you need to do is take one day at a time, and follow the advice on your own sidebar, "never, never, never give up."
Got both your emails - I'll email back when I've got a free moment!
I'm sorry you're having trouble! But I'm glad you're not giving up! :-) It's amazing what "tiredness" does to a person. I feel that way a lot too. I'm "tired" of dragging "it" around all the time, and wish that I could give "it" up. But, as I tell my students (and told them even today!), even though you're "tired," you still have to get the job done. You still have do what you're asked to do, whether you like or not.
ReplyDeleteGuess I need to take my advice! LOL Hope you have a great weekend!
Great comments...they're so right. It's true what Staci said about many people feeling similarly right now...including ME. I have so many things demanding my time lately. There's only so-much of me to go around. what's the easiest thing to put on the back-burner? Me.
ReplyDeletewhen I'm tired, or not feeling well, it's "fitness, schmitness." I'm glad you see that when you're rested and immunity is back that you'll also be "back." (I'm telling myself the same thing).
There's a song going through my head right now, "I get knocked down, but I get up again. Ain't nothin' gonna keep me down!" (It's on my blog's playlist).